For I am divided for love's sake, for the chance of union.

For the record, yesterday when i checked Valerie / Chelsea' s MySpace,
there was no " mood " displayed at all.
When i checked again today, it is still / again " adventurous " and the
grinning smiley. Login is 1 / 13 / 2010. US English display.
By the way , several days ago , when i checked rotch' s MySpace, the top
reply / comment - " Dread Central " - was gone too for a day, but was displayed
again the next day.
Other MySpaces i checked yesterday displayed " moods ".
And Valerie still calls herself ' Chelsea Dagger '.
These are the facts.

Slice of truth.

Valerie' s behavior concerning me has mostly been and still is,
rather more than ever,
arrogant, insulting, heartless, egotistical and generally totally inappropriate.



Believe it or not, but she had and still has no right to act like that.

This sucks. On any level.

Valerie' s / Chelsea' s latest post shows yet another change that is
in turn same old same old.
We ' ve seen all this before.

Looks like she had been travelling. Seattle, Minnesota...
Here an older post :

" Mouliche

left Seattle for Minesota, on my way to Detroit before heading back "home"
Mood: tired
Posted at 10:41 PM Jan 3 from Mobile

Valerie T.
30 / Female
Unalaska, Alaska, US
Last Login: 1/7/2010

"


" HOME " , huh ?


Now she is still / again " Chelsea Dagger".
Login is 1 /11 / 2010.
There is a new picture now that shows her rather expectant and the likes.
Current " mood " is ' adventurous ' and a green broadly grinning smiley.
And maybe somewhat not quite " real " and / or convincing though / and she has
rather big eyes on the picture.
Before that it was a picture that showed her in front of the mirror in
sepia tones, the picture somewhat blurred, unclear, also due to a reflection
in the mirror.


' Chelsea Dagger ' is a song by The Fratellis and is also a
BURLESQUE dancer...

Two lines from that song :

" Well you must be a girl with shoes like that
She said you know me well"


Two comments / replies from MySpace :

RYE N.M. $8.00

" You must be a girl with shoes like that "


And Valerie / Mouliche' s / Chelsea' s reply :

" 31. Jul. 2009 20:48

ah you know me well! "



One thing i have learned over the course of the past 5 years is that
one should rather not trust Valerie' s " moods ".


Look , this is ' Chelsea ' , not Valérie.

Of course this is kind of boring and sickening.

rotch' s ( name written small on purpose ) MySpace has a
basically black design with red borders. Looks inviting too.
" Mike rotch is the best around " etc is gone for some time now,
but the song is still " You' re the best " by Joe Esposito.
His latest " friend " was " dread central " which displayed some kind
of zombies , and they thanked him for being " part of the bloodshed ".
That is gone too now and the last comment / reply is from August 25.
Valerie ( Chelsea....) is still on the first page of his " friends " list.
And take a look at this list. Wrestlers, monsters, sickos etc,
insanity galore.
He lists a load of " interests " bands, " heroes " and movies.
Here ( again):


"
*
General
I love music, horror flicks, aviator glasses, Elvis shades, Dickies hoodies/work

shirts, basketball shorts, Spongebob Squarepants, pro wrestling, girls, DVDs, the shocker

(not using it, just flashing it), Happy Tree Friends, Curious George, indy wrestling, lucha

libre, puroresu, wristbands, black socks, drawing, traveling, meeting new people, partying,

having a good time, mixed martial arts, and sometimes video games (Mario Frikkin' Party).

I love the broads, Metalocalypse, and Donkey Kong.
*
Music
I love the (OG) Misfits, The Distillers, and Walls of Jericho. I kill my ears

listening to them, among many others. Mainly them, though.

Balzac, Mindless Self Indulgence, Bon Jovi, Guns n' Roses, Pantera, Bloodhound Gang,

Pulse Ultra, Tool, A Perfect Circle, Slipknot, Killswitch Engage, Anti-Flag, Stone Temple

Pilots, Kelly Clarkson, Hatebreed, Bad Religion, In Flames, Johnny Cash, Pennywise, System

of a Down, Mushroomhead, Black Flag, HANSON!, Deftones, Elvis Presley, Korn, Less Than Jake,

Marvin Gaye, Metallica, Mudvayne, Offspring, Peter Gabriel, Rush, Skid Row, Sublime, The Dan

Band, Wednesday13, Alice in Chains, Mad Season, Lynyrd Skynard, Wu Tang Clan, 8-bit Nintendo

music, Horse The Band, Bury Your Dead, DETHKLOK~!

I'm open minded when it comes to this subject, though. If music sounds good, or is

funny - I'll listen to it.

P.S. - Fuck Kurt Cobain.
*
Movies
Princess Bride, Ong Bak, The Protector, Spongebob Squarepants Movie, Devil's Rejects,

House of 1000 Corpses, 8mm, SHREK, Battle Royale, High Tension, The Lost Boys,

Night/Dawn/Day/Land of the Dead, Fight Club, American History X, Zombi, The Toxic Avenger,

Citizen Toxie, Story of Ricky, Slither, Dead Alive, Donnie Darko, Hostel, Saw/Saw2, THE

BEYOND, Boondock Saints, Karate Kid series, Million Dollar Baby, The Notebook (so what?),

Terror Firmer, X-Men series (hated the third one), Pay it Forward, The Usual Suspects,

Scarface, Taxi Driver, Casino, Carlito's Way, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (I like them all!

Even 3!!), Curious George (<3), Pet Sematary, RATS : NIGHT OF TERROR (haha), Cannibal

Holocaust, Resident Evil (the second one sucked ass), The Silence of the Lambs, Hannibal, 28

Days/Weeks Later, The Hills Have Eyes(original and remake), Last House on the Left,

Nightmare on Elm Street movies , 2001 Maniacs, Halloween series(but I like Jason better than

Michael...by far), Friday the 13th movies, Texas Chainsaw Massacre (both new and old) Hard

Candy, Monster House, The Descent, The entire Rocky series(even 5), Harsh Times, The Hitcher

and it's remake, Casino Royale and ROADHOUSE!

I like alot of movies...dammit.
2009 edit - I'm not adding any more to this. I like so many more movies...fuck.
*
Television
THE OFFICE!!!

Boondocks, Robot Chicken, etc. I'll watch old tv series' on DVD, like Thundercats,

Transformers, He-Man, etc.
*
Books
"American Psycho" by Bret Easton Ellis, "Pure Dynamite" by Tom Billington.

Johnny the Homicidal Maniac, 30 Days of Night and The Walking Dead. TWD being my

favourite comic/graphic novel series of all time.

I need to read "Glamorama" by Bret Easton Ellis.
*
Heroes
My mom, Donkey Kong, Dynamite Kid, Glen Danzig, Eddie Kingston, Mega Man, Riley Mason,

UMAGA(keeping the 'WWF Superstars' squash alive), William Murderface, and LARRY F'N SWEENEY!

I can't believe I forgot Taz. That's T-A-Z. None of that extra added "Z" shit.

...and pretty much anyone who has overcome adversity, or doesn't have "Player" or

"Uno" in their name.

Details

* Status: Engaged
* Hometown: Ottawa, Ontario, Canada
* Orientation: Straight
* Body type: 6' 0" / More to love!
* Ethnicity: White / Caucasian
* Religion: Other
* Zodiac Sign: Libra
* Children: Someday
* Smoke / Drink: No / Yes
* Education: High school
* Occupation: Clerk

"




After all i have written here...and after all she could have read herself...




It is so obvious what a repulsive creep he is.
Valerie has called him a " chicken fucker " herself. Goes to show
that she is at least not quite unaware what rotch is about.
rotch is obviously insane.
He is " engaged " , huh ? He lists that for years.
Show me the girl who wants to have something to do with a repulsive creep
like him. If so, then she must be necessarily insane.
As he has unconsciously admitted years ago, he is a " worthless liar "
too, and of course confused as he has said about himself too.
Unconsciously...
rotch is lost in a fantasy world.
The guy is so full of shit , it comes out of his ears.
Is a loser, on any level, obviously.



It is incredible but sadly true that a potentially highly intelligent
girl like Valerie ever wanted to have something to do with him.
Yes i know why.
As long as we can share insane fantasies, isn' t it ?
Fleeing into a fantasy world. Where wrestling is " love ", for example,
and rotch is her friend...
More on that probably later on, though i have already
written something about it here.
For now guess the rest.

Some brief and incomplete remarks.

If i go by what i have seen on rotch' s and Kiefer' s comment boards and elsewhere
then Valerie has called herself ' Chelsea Dagger ' for some time over
the course of the last two years or so.
How inviting...
And, by the way , she was BLOND there. And had a nose piercing...
Haven' t we seen this already ? And a long time ago ? Several times ?

And this name seems to fit the general " mood " of her MySpace the way i had
seen it some time ago, the way it is documented on my journal here.

In general this seems to be one of her " heartless bitch " - names.
Just like " Fangar Bangz " and the likes.
Let' s have " fun ", you see. Has always truly " helped ", huh ?

By now Valerie has changed her name into ' Chelsea Dagger ' ( again ).
Maybe ' mouliche ' was some kind of ' nice ' role.
There was no " mood " displayed for some time, and then it changed into
" tired ".
And now it is " bored " with a yellow depressed smiley with question marks.


At the very least i find this depressing. And rather repulsive.
Does she ever learn ?
Yes i know these are rhetoric questions too in this case.


And of course i know talk is not where it' s at, even precise descriptions
are not where it' s at. It is not about listing patterns, accurate or not.

" Your package is nice but I've got to look twice
To find the real you "

~ Chic, ' Take it off '


You could really say that. Twice ? By far not enough.
And i' m trying this for at least 5 years now to understand her.
So hard.
It ain' t easy. Definitely not easy.

A long time ago i was at a girlfriend' s place, and she had her Tv running.
There was this movie by a french director, maybe Francois Truffaut, i don' t
remember. Anyway, there was the french actress lying in a hospital bed
( she had tried to commit suicide or something like that, i think ), and
this shabby pop song was blaring from the radio.
The song went like : " Without you i am nothing ".

And then the actress said something like : " It is kind of funny how
cheap pop songs are always so true ".

Today' s song.
There is also a version by the Red Hot Chilli Peppers
and others. This is the original i woke up with then.
Whatever.



Higher Ground - Stevie Wonder

People keep on learnin'
Soldiers keep on warrin'
World keep on turnin'
Cause it won't be too long

Powers keep on lyin'
While your people keep on dyin'
World keep on turnin'
Cause it won't be too long

I'm so darn glad he let me try it again
Cause my last time on earth I lived a whole world of sin
I'm so glad that I know more than I knew then
Gonna keep on tryin'
Till I reach the highest ground

Teachers keep on teachin'
Preachers keep on preachin'
World keep on turnin'
Cause it won't be too long
Oh no

Lovers keep on lovin'
Believers keep on believin'
Sleepers just stop sleepin'
Cause it won't be too long
Oh no

I'm so glad that he let me try it again
Cause my last time on earth I lived a whole world of sin
I'm so glad that I know more than I knew then
Gonna keep on tryin'
Till I reach my highest ground...Whew!
Till I reach my highest ground
No one's gonna bring me down
Oh no
Till I reach my highest ground
Don't you let nobody bring you down (they'll sho 'nuff try)
God is gonna show you higher ground
He's the only friend you have around

Bullshit. Every silver lining implies a heavy cloud.
Light clouds have no silver lining and a clouded sky displays no silver
lining at all.
THAT way it makes sense. This is not being negative and the other way
round is not being positive, it is kind of delusional.

Believe it or not.

Basically i could actualize my profile. But why ?
In a way , it is still all valid though could be precised and
updated.
If i wanted to make it as accurate as possible i would probably need to change
it once a month.
And that' s just not worth the time.
For example, i find this ad concerning G- Unit on it now. Fuck you.
This song is not listed because i would like the lyrics, i do not.
Can' t stand " gangstas " , worthless creeps, all of them.
The song is there for da beat and nothing else, it's actually hype -no - tic
and therefore magic.

Music carries its own message.